“Mental Graffiti” Introduction
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“C4 aka CHAOS” is a very unique poet with a lot of different attributes to enlist to make his writing so diverse and abstract. He has put out the number one mix tape in Atlanta, GA (My G.A.T.s) and an album “Guilty by Association” that has done very well overseas. While working on his hit single “CHAOS Theory” from his new album “Mental Graffiti”, “C4” has now finally accomplished his next life task and that is his poetry book “Mental Graffiti”. The name was selected due to all the things your mind composes good or bad, to help illustrate your personality and promote who you are from within. Graffiti, because no matter who or what it is, it is you, uncut, untarnished, and unchanged. Graffiti may look bad to others but it is an expression of the artist and to even the most complex artist can look at it on the streets walls as unique and respect it was art rawest form.
“Mental Graffiti” is a very unique display of words put together so that we may all see a piece of ourselves or others that we know within them. This is just the start of books that “C4 aka CHAOS” will be putting together to help stimulate the world as he see it so that they can see it for what it is to themselves.
“Mental Graffiti”
By: “C4”
“CHAOS aka C4”
The #1 HIT SINGLE CHAOS Theory is finally here. Just the track alone stands out as different. It is comprised of a rock-n-roll concept with a rap beat line to help give it that crossover appeal. To Keep that crossover appeal “CHAOS aka C4” did the verses and thought it would only be right to get his friend “Danny B” lead single of a rock back to sing on the hook! This is got to be wicked! Rock and rap! Who would have thought? It is an instant hit on the overseas market. This is exactly what the music industry has been waiting for and “CHAOS aka C4” brought it to you first and will bring it to you again when the album drop titled “Mental Graffiti.” What is on the mind of this HOT artist, “Taking over the world” he stated with confidence.
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“CHAOS aka C4” is a partnering company with Energy Fitness in Atlanta, Ga. We are the company top fitness centers on the east coast. The great thing about Energy Fitness is that there is not one set fitness level you have to be at to be trained there. We work with professional athletes, the everyday house wife, to youth to help them advance to the next level of their life. Many facilities workout but at “Energy Fitness” we train for train for a quality of life. Energy Fitness teaches “It is not the workout but the intensity.” Energy Fitness has a regiment:
• Personal Training
o Weight lose
o Weight gain
o Cardio Strengthening
o Toning
o Total Body Strengthening
o Stretching Improvement
• Boot camp
o Corporate
o Weekend Warriors
o Family Training
• Extreme Fitness
o Sludge hammer
o Tire Flipping
o Sled pull
o Resistant bands Stability
o Kickboxing
Mittens
Multiple Bag Drills
One on one Sparring
o Boxing Sculpting
Mittens
Multiple Bag Drills
One on one sparring
• Speed and Agility
o Pro-Combine
40-60 yard dash
Technique work
Improvement
225lbs
Vertical Jump
Shuttle run
o Box Drills
o Huddles Drills
o Ladder Drills
o Pool Workout
o Pole Classes
• Stretching Improvements
o Stretching workout
o Stretching Specialist
• Massages
• Youth Mentoring
o We do not just focus on their workouts we talk to them and work on their work ethics and in the gym so it can shine through in the classroom.
• And for all that I forgot to mention, we got that too.
“Be the best you that you can be.”
Special Thanks to the lawfirm of Sykes and Ladson, LLC...
Tamika Sykes
Sykes & Ladson LLC
Attorneys At Law
1401 Peachtree Street
Suite 500
Atlanta, GA 30309
Office: (404) 870-8410
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Sunday, November 21, 2010
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Darnell Clark, PR (Mr. Public Relation)
As an entertainer one of the harderest concept to grasp is media relation. How a simple comment or action can be twisted by the media is not always the first thought when out amonst the media. This is where Image Makers Media's Mr Public Relation, Darnell Clark has repeated saved me "CHAOS aka C4" and I am thankful. From my music (CHAOS Theory), my book Mental Graffiti, as well as my personal training, Darnell Clark has gave me not just the image I desire from the media but the same image transcending over to my fans. If you want the best PR work done without having to second guest your public relation's rep, Darnell Clark is the way to go and we at Iron Fist Records has reaped the benefits time and time again.
Thanks to my PR,
Mr. PR Darnell Clark
www.imagemakersmedia.com
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Friday, September 24, 2010
Bishop Eddie Long!!! 30 More Lawsuits!!!
*Bossip Exclusive* Bishop Eddie Long Stepping Down From The Pulpit After Sunday Sermone
Bishop Eddie Long’s problems are continuing to mount (pun intended)! While so far the number of plaintiffs who’ve filed civil complaints against New Birth Missionary Baptist Church and it’s leader currently stands at three, BOSSIP sources tell us that number is rising and there’s only one logical thing for Bishop Eddie to do.
BOSSIP has learned from a well-placed source within the Church that AT LEAST 30 young men have contacted BJ Bernstein, the lawyer who filed the civil suit on behalf of Anthony Flagg, Maurice Robinson and Jamal Parris, and both Long and the Church are fearful more are coming.
Our source also tells us that Long had initially planned to step down from the Church today, however, with plans to address the congregation in this Sunday’s sermon it’s likely that he will announce his decision to take a reprieve from his duties when he is at the pulpit on Sunday.
An additional source familiar with Long and his practices at New Birth tells us that it’s a definite possibility that there could be at least that many plaintiffs, since Bishop Long selects new “Spiritual Sons” regularly and has been doing so for years!
SMH. 30 man class action lawsuit — here we come!
Think maybe they should take “Missionary” out of the name of the church now?
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Actual Add for Lawsuit and photos
Bishop Eddie Long’s problems are continuing to mount (pun intended)! While so far the number of plaintiffs who’ve filed civil complaints against New Birth Missionary Baptist Church and it’s leader currently stands at three, BOSSIP sources tell us that number is rising and there’s only one logical thing for Bishop Eddie to do.
BOSSIP has learned from a well-placed source within the Church that AT LEAST 30 young men have contacted BJ Bernstein, the lawyer who filed the civil suit on behalf of Anthony Flagg, Maurice Robinson and Jamal Parris, and both Long and the Church are fearful more are coming.
Our source also tells us that Long had initially planned to step down from the Church today, however, with plans to address the congregation in this Sunday’s sermon it’s likely that he will announce his decision to take a reprieve from his duties when he is at the pulpit on Sunday.
An additional source familiar with Long and his practices at New Birth tells us that it’s a definite possibility that there could be at least that many plaintiffs, since Bishop Long selects new “Spiritual Sons” regularly and has been doing so for years!
SMH. 30 man class action lawsuit — here we come!
Think maybe they should take “Missionary” out of the name of the church now?
Click For Link!
Actual Add for Lawsuit and photos
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Scholarship Money and BLACK YOUTH!!!
We ae all more than just athletes. A lot of times as young black youth we get lost in the idea that we make great athletes and nothing more. When we think SCHOLARSHIP and BLACK we think sports however we as parents can stop this mental infection from manifesting within our youth by parenting the youth that GOD give us DIVINE rights over.
Ok we all know I mentour a lot of troubled youth however it is great to be able to talk about a kid... a child that is not trouble and let them shine since the light seem to only be on our YOUNG BLACK YOUTH when they do something wrong on playing sports. Robert Brown (Gerber Baby) is one of those youth. His parents (Nyaunawi Yekpewa Brown and David Brown) work hard to extend him the freedom of choice, be smart enough to stand out without a ball in his hand. Than pic up a ball and choice to put it done and pic up a ruler and a protracter.
Scholarships MONEY! Ok, on a positive note my BEST FRIEND's son is up for a scholarship from Gerber and just about got it but it may be your vote that her son and family needs! Please help me do my part as a friend and click on link below and vote for her son. FEEL FREE TO POST ON YOUR PAGE TO OTHERS!
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Sunday, August 15, 2010
Arnold Harrison II Two time Super Bowl Champion
All trainers have a client that they feel very happy or accomplished when it comes to what they got done in their training period. With Arnold Harrison II, as a trainer I feel I learned a lot about work ethics. With Arnold being the standard for all of my future NFL clients, I decided to mentour more younger athletes so they would be the new standard for athletes to come. Thanks a million Arnold Harrsion II. The true definition of an athlete.
"C4 aka CHAOS"
"C4 aka CHAOS"
Thursday, August 12, 2010
"Georgia New Texting Law" WHAT YOU SHOULD KNOW!
July 1, 2010 Georgia’s new law entitled “Caleb Sorohan Act for Saving Lives by Preventing Texting While Driv-ing” went in effect. Caleb Sorohan was an 18 year old college freshman when he was killed last year in a head-on collision because he was texting while driving. Since his death, his family has urged state law-makers to pass the texting ban.
Under this new law, anyone who text while driving may be fine $150 and have 1 point added to their driver’s history. O.C.G.A. §40-5-57(c)(1)(A). If you are 18 years or older, the new driving law states “No person shall operate a motor vehicle on any public road or highway of this state while using a wireless telecommuni-cations device to write, send, or read any text based communication, including but not limited to a text message, instant mes-sage, electronic mail, or Internet data." O.C.G.A §40-6-241.1(B).
To Be Or Not To Be?
That Is the Question: Can it be Enforced?
Unlike the other new law against distracted driving which prohibits anyone younger than 18 years old from using cell phones at all while driving a motor vehicle. The Caleb Sorohan Act allows adult drivers to speak on a cell phone so long as there is no texting. So the question becomes how effectively can this law be en-forced?
First, the Officer has to determine if the driver is an adult or minor. Once it is determined that a driver is 18 years or older. The Officer must decipher whether you were texting while driving (TWD) or simply talking on your cell phone. How would an officer be able to distinguish? Even if the officer claims he witnessed the driver texting. How does he prove it?
The driver does not have to give the officer his cell phone. Only if the driver voluntarily gives his cell phone does the officer have an opportunity to search & verify texting.
Practically speaking, the officer may become irritated by the driver’s reluctance to give up the cell phone which may result in an arrest. But if the TWD case goes to court there are two readily available defenses: 1) the classic, “I didn’t do it. The officer made a mistake” or 2) the distinction, “I wasn’t texting I was talking and that is not against the law.” It is the State’s burden to prove the case against you beyond a reasonable doubt. Sure, the State can subpoena cell phone records. But, it is unlikely the State would use up so much time & resources to pursue a $150 traffic case. It becomes your word against the officer’s before a judge or jury of your peers who all most likely have cell phones…that they have used while driving.
Whose that Knocking At My Window?
The Other Consequences of TWD
The significance of this new law is how it affects other laws. For instance, if a driver causes an accident due to texting which results in another’s death, violation of this law could persuade the prosecutor to pursue vehicular homicide charges.
Additionally, law enforcement now have another legitimate reason to stop your vehicle. Georgia law requires officers to state a reasonable articulable suspicion for stopping a driver in a motor vehicle. If the officer fails to do so, then even DUI or drug trafficking charges may be dismissed. In this case it doesn’t matter if you were texting or actually talking on the phone because Georgia law does not require that the officer’s stated reason is correct. So even if the officer mistakenly thought you were texting while driving he would still be able to articulate a valid reason for the stop.
Killing Two Birds with One Stone
How will this new law affect the multi-tasker, the person who tries to do more than one thing at the same time? Colloquially it is called, “Killing two birds with one stone.” Especially when faced with a 30 minute commute in Atlanta’s traffic, a driver has prime opportunity to return calls and messages prior to arriving to his destination.
Due to questionable enforcement procedures, we do not know what effect this new law will have on drivers. However, we do know that distracted driving is not the safest way to drive. The National Safety Council, a non-profit agency, estimates that nearly 30 percent of crashes—or 1.6 million annually—are caused by drivers talking or texting on cell phones.
So whether Georgia’s new law causes a slight snicker to escape or you to follow Oprah’s mantra “No Phone in the Car”, it is a personal choice. Regardless of the effect of the new law, let’s hope it brings awareness to Georgia drivers that safety is first.
TEXTING & TICKETING By: Tamika Sykes
SYKES & LADSON LLC
Attorneys at Law
(404) 870-8410
www.sykesladson.com
For more information checkout:
Sykes & Ladson Newsletter Volume 1 Issue 2
Under this new law, anyone who text while driving may be fine $150 and have 1 point added to their driver’s history. O.C.G.A. §40-5-57(c)(1)(A). If you are 18 years or older, the new driving law states “No person shall operate a motor vehicle on any public road or highway of this state while using a wireless telecommuni-cations device to write, send, or read any text based communication, including but not limited to a text message, instant mes-sage, electronic mail, or Internet data." O.C.G.A §40-6-241.1(B).
To Be Or Not To Be?
That Is the Question: Can it be Enforced?
Unlike the other new law against distracted driving which prohibits anyone younger than 18 years old from using cell phones at all while driving a motor vehicle. The Caleb Sorohan Act allows adult drivers to speak on a cell phone so long as there is no texting. So the question becomes how effectively can this law be en-forced?
First, the Officer has to determine if the driver is an adult or minor. Once it is determined that a driver is 18 years or older. The Officer must decipher whether you were texting while driving (TWD) or simply talking on your cell phone. How would an officer be able to distinguish? Even if the officer claims he witnessed the driver texting. How does he prove it?
The driver does not have to give the officer his cell phone. Only if the driver voluntarily gives his cell phone does the officer have an opportunity to search & verify texting.
Practically speaking, the officer may become irritated by the driver’s reluctance to give up the cell phone which may result in an arrest. But if the TWD case goes to court there are two readily available defenses: 1) the classic, “I didn’t do it. The officer made a mistake” or 2) the distinction, “I wasn’t texting I was talking and that is not against the law.” It is the State’s burden to prove the case against you beyond a reasonable doubt. Sure, the State can subpoena cell phone records. But, it is unlikely the State would use up so much time & resources to pursue a $150 traffic case. It becomes your word against the officer’s before a judge or jury of your peers who all most likely have cell phones…that they have used while driving.
Whose that Knocking At My Window?
The Other Consequences of TWD
The significance of this new law is how it affects other laws. For instance, if a driver causes an accident due to texting which results in another’s death, violation of this law could persuade the prosecutor to pursue vehicular homicide charges.
Additionally, law enforcement now have another legitimate reason to stop your vehicle. Georgia law requires officers to state a reasonable articulable suspicion for stopping a driver in a motor vehicle. If the officer fails to do so, then even DUI or drug trafficking charges may be dismissed. In this case it doesn’t matter if you were texting or actually talking on the phone because Georgia law does not require that the officer’s stated reason is correct. So even if the officer mistakenly thought you were texting while driving he would still be able to articulate a valid reason for the stop.
Killing Two Birds with One Stone
How will this new law affect the multi-tasker, the person who tries to do more than one thing at the same time? Colloquially it is called, “Killing two birds with one stone.” Especially when faced with a 30 minute commute in Atlanta’s traffic, a driver has prime opportunity to return calls and messages prior to arriving to his destination.
Due to questionable enforcement procedures, we do not know what effect this new law will have on drivers. However, we do know that distracted driving is not the safest way to drive. The National Safety Council, a non-profit agency, estimates that nearly 30 percent of crashes—or 1.6 million annually—are caused by drivers talking or texting on cell phones.
So whether Georgia’s new law causes a slight snicker to escape or you to follow Oprah’s mantra “No Phone in the Car”, it is a personal choice. Regardless of the effect of the new law, let’s hope it brings awareness to Georgia drivers that safety is first.
TEXTING & TICKETING By: Tamika Sykes
SYKES & LADSON LLC
Attorneys at Law
(404) 870-8410
www.sykesladson.com
For more information checkout:
Sykes & Ladson Newsletter Volume 1 Issue 2
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Happy Mother's Day!!!
"How are you doing, what can I do to be a better man worth your time, to be able to get a moment of your time"
"I love you mom"
My life, good or bad I would not change a thing, it made me the man (father) that I am today.
"CHAOS aka C4"
Friday, February 26, 2010
It can not be me, is it me…
It can not be me, is it me…
Confusion manifest itself in lack of knowledge, feeling that we are one and know each other well since we know thyself, It can not be me is like saying it can not be her which means it can not be… so is it me...
Confusion manifest itself in lack of knowledge, feeling that we are one and know each other well since we know thyself, It can not be me is like saying it can not be her which means it can not be… so is it me... No I do not always feel that I have a fair shot since our relationship has so many rules and other guidelines that others did not have to follow so I am doing the best that I can with limited resources so it can not be me. However, not saying this is what happen but if, I was told about my lack of resources and agreed, making it legally binding and make it me…Thinking, is it me...
Please, I do for her soul, it pleases my soul, and at times I may have slipped not discrediting stories from others untold. You know, questions from people all in our business. Listen, others did not have to. And she hid not their love and affection, out in the open their love and affection. You know what, thinking, if it was brought up by me to be more professional and out of the limelight, with our love life and we both agreed means I being so in love, spoke very much prematurely, of this unspoken love which was causing the joy I have in my heart about bust, bust, bust!... That is good right; or maybe injured her trust, thinking she was ashamed of me and did not celebrate me… Wrong was me, is it me...
You know it can not be me, I only love her but when we speak it later escapes me since I feel like I am struggling for a position with her. No no no, it is not like she does not let me know my position and I hear it all of the time but surround my positions are things others before me where missing and now my lips she is kissing so why do she not let the world know of me? Tell me, I am listening as I ask thee, knowing divine direction, is it me…
Now I see,
Nothing done in malice, now I truly see I was careless, thinking of the goodness of me, blinded me. Intentions are not always to be mentioned when the out- comes in non-agreed dimensions. It could be me, if I went against her trust to extend my so call good intentions. Now I just want her to oversee the flaws in me, as stepping stones to better me and for her to realize that I realize; I now see, it is me...
My Eve, It is me…
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Do she believe in me, is she ashamed of me, where do I go...
Do she believe in me, strong back, upright walk, commanding voice, age never mattered, I was breed to be a man. Is she ashamed of me, best keep secret, seem to belittle me, said to be the best she ever had, well why do I feel sad?Does she believe in me? I would love her, protect her against man’s evil, embrace her with GOD’s Grace, appreciate her curves but always look her in her face, so beautiful. Is she ashamed of me, do I walk funny, not look good enough, I mean I know I do not always dress on the fly but I think I dress, good… E….nough.
Do she believe in me, Like the president secret service agent I would take the bullet, jump in front of her eyes opened so I can face the bullet. Ashamed is she, maybe I do not hold her enough, do not display my feelings, on my shoulders enough.
Believe in me, does she? Know my heart over the words that my mouth is speaking, overstand my words, through the confusion of nerves. Feel safe with me when nightmares invade her dreams, Eve I am right here, I am not going nowhere, as softer breathing replacing your screams. Yet ashamed you seems.
Well, do she? Believe that I am a man first, a boy never, just young in love but mature clever. Ashamed she should never, I celebrate her, she should celebrate me, but I fear for whatever reason, she is ashamed of me.
Believe in me…
Where do I go from here...
"C4 aka CHAOS'
P.S. Please show support downloads as many tracks of my music as you like at www.cdbaby.com/artist/chaosakac4
Monday, February 15, 2010
I will beg...
I will beg,Lord extends me a chance, and I will beg. Pride I have not, vision of what my life would be, without thee scares me, I do not want to be free. Free of your mercy and never knowing your grace, and so I pray…
Living on this planet has weakened me. Consumed by my flesh, my flesh consumes me, overwhelmed by sin, not much moves me. Yet you strengthen me and gave her to me. Soul mates… And so I pray.
I asked for a beautiful wife, respectful kids, so I can give them back to you and you can be happy of how your son did. Here, my wife and my kids. Giving them back to you to praise your name, infect the world with goodness as you. They are you. “Greater is he that is within me, than he that is within the world” well if you rule over me and reside within my girls, more than the devil of this world, than the strength is within me.
As I her Adam and she my Eve, have I wronged my Eve in some way that would cause you to take her away from me? Did I receive her and start to neglect you? Have I started to pray less, no cause I pray more and now that my mate is happy with my soul, I pray more than more.
I thank you when the mate of my soul is kissing me, I acknowledge you my GOD within my day as it weakens me and you repeatedly strengthen me. I put others before me and only now ask you can I pray for me as I have pray for so many others, can I ask for happiness when I have put others happiness before mines, time, after time, after time…
Am I being less of my human gender, a man, which begs? Well checking my ego at the door, she is worth that and so much more. Never at the extent of neglecting you my LORD, but she is my EVE to help praise you my LORD. To help raise kids to exalt you holly name my LORD. She is my life’s link that is missing, I have her heart but the devil is running rampet through our lives, interfering with your plan, give us a clear head to deal with the madness, and a prayer to pray to remove the sadness… If need be, LORD, I will beg…
I know no pride, I feel no pain, and I am num to my ego, on my knees in the rain. As such to hide my tears, begging my president for CHANGE. Or am I even worthy to have a better life, less confusion, to come inside for a CHANGE. Shed no tears, hiding from the rain. I feel no shame.
LORD I will beg.
Sunday, January 31, 2010
She says...
She says…
She says she loves me, I know that is true. She knows I love her because of what I say, and the things that I do…. For you, I mean her.
She said these things that infect your mind are merely temporally; well that is what she says. Time is showing I am getting less time and more time to comfort his mind. But I should not worry cause she would not break my heart well, that is what "She says..."
She says she has the perfect man in me and that, influences me… She is all about me and that allows my worries to be free. Her nights are with him, now my worries plagues me… But; She says…She says she do not hold everybody hands, yet she holds mines with such conviction, she says she do not kiss just anybody, yet her lips graces mines daily. Should I worry if she treats him as she treats me, kiss him as she kisses me; hold his hands, not missing me. Does she say the same things to him as she has said to me… Come down baby she says to me, over the phone as she comforts me; She says…
She says I love you to me, and my heart slows down. When I see her walking towards me, life slows down. She is like a California commercial walking towards me in slow motion, hair blowing in the wind, she sees me as her man, throw many men. I can hear every footstep, and my heart seems to be beating so loud. We are always surrounded by others, yet only two in a crowd. Soul mates, she says…
She says one thing when I am worried, it comforts me, and she says I love you and it authenticity is therapeutic to my past like a doctor it heals me… But now she is not with me and I wonder how does she comfort he, when he is not me… The things; She says…
She says do not look at this as me leaving you because I am coming back to you, I say to be so close to my heart it is hard to see her in the distance. To not be able to distinguish the lies from the truths she says believe in us, well I believe in her yet fear for us, she communicating less is hurting us. Trust; She says…
I love her but I trust life yet I can not ignore what … She says…
Should I worry bout how I feel or listen to what…
She says…
She says…
P.S. Please show support downloads as many tracks of my music as you like at www.cdbaby.com/artist/chaosakac4
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Oh Lord, HELP ME...
I have been up, and I have been down, I have been strong, and I have been weak, I only remember being weak... My tears, my fears, Oh LORD, will you help me...
I found a compliment, completeness, another half, she is with another half and I miss her so, LORD, Oh LORD, will you help me...
We use to talk every night, Laugh everyday, smile when we are silent, disagree yet never violent, two of a kind so close to one, the perfect pair, now no calls, no laughter, I wonder if she knows my pain or even cares ...ever, Oh LORD, will you help me...
I use to think I knew myself, now I feel like somebody else, I use to think she was mines, I wait by the phone wasting time, LOVE do not LOVE no one and time waits for no one, I am along by myself as one. There is no one to talk to. Questioning if she ever loved you and there is no one to hold on to, has anyone ever loved you. Oh LORD, will you help me...
I use to rush to sleep just to see her the next day, hate to sleep if she were sleeping face-to-face, fearing that I would miss her too so much if I closed my eyes, or fearing I would wake-up... Than I woke up. Oh LORD, will you help me...
Now I fear the night and the a.m., because neither one of them... have you in them, LORD where is my baby, I do not want any other women. Oh LORD, will you help me...
I have called and no answer, should I call her again, she always answers, should I let go, is that your answer, LORD, will you answer...
Oh LORD, will you help me...
“C4 aka CHAOS”
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Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Transient Relationships
I love my family, my beautiful wife and divine kids, and my many lifetime achievements I have achieved and succeeded.
I go to work on the early AM and return home on the Late PM. I am a provider for my family. No balancing check books with rubber like tendencies, she wears the finest clothes and buys the finest luxury... yet I have never seen. No time here, I must work hours of exhaustion without any caution, to feelings.
My kids are so talented, sports to music, music to sports my job and long hour payed for that, from the calicis on my palm to the pain in my lower back, I paid for that. Yet I have to work from the early AM to the late PM so I miss all music recitals and the parents at the games do not know my face or my name, am I still paying for that.
I love my family, I work so that they can have, I work harder so they will be free, but the more I work, the more they ask to see me. And that's free.
At the office so much she notice me, inside her so much she no-this-is-me, I love my family.
Do not really think it is wrong, I would be here anyway, I am hardly ever at home, and work is where I stay.
My wife says "You seem distant" I say " I'm just tired" she said that is funny, when you got that phone call, just now walking out of the room you seemed wired" ... I love my family.
Rushing out in the morning, I have a to, do to get this paper, I know I am off today, kids recital and game day, but there is money to be made... and tend to my aid. However please do not confused the two, I am not a cheater, I am only with her to passed time when I am way from home... why am I away from my family, my conscious ask... I ignore.
People do not prioritize, their family want compromise, or be isolated and it is work related. My life is consume with priorities but not prioritized, Work and infidelity has made me less than me. I love my family.
... But do they know me.
Eyes to GOD!
"C4 aka CHAOS"
What's my positon
What's my position,
I truly feel, i harbor no ill will, yet she hesitate,
fear of me being a mistake... What is my position.
To hold and to honor my woman, to love and respect her short comings...
I know my position.
Before I become her man I must already be a man, so I am a man first,
a Lover always, and a future her man to be... Please position me.
Confusion confuses me, because she asked GOD for me, yet do not notice me,
Her comfort notices me; because of our soul's compatibility she is unusually comfortable with me... what soul-mates are and is this my position.
Although the whole world went digital there still is some interference, he is many moons away, and knew her heart for 1460 days and yet still did not really know her... what his position is.
Although I am closer to her eyes, he is closer to her heart ...than I, there are many locks within the world but for every lock, there is only one key, and it resides within he... what is my position.
Am I to love her so much to let her go and if she loves me than she will return, I mean I know she like me a lot but love me not... what is this position.
I mean I have played the fool before, and been so overstanding that it left me standing alone, but with her is my happiness, and she makes me wrong so I'm right... am I wrong.
To want another mans happiness because he did not appreciate GOD gift the first time, to step back when stepping forward is the logical thing to do, to not be selfish and let another MAN correct where he fell short as a MAN... HELL NAH!
... That is NOT my position
My position is with her, wise with her, lay with her, wipe her tears away and let her know that she do not have to cry every time I do something that brings her happiness, hold her hand to guide her through the troubles of the world, letting her know that I respect her as a woman and I will protect her inner little girl;
If she wants me I am here playing my position, opposing all oppositions, and missing her when she is missing.
.... That is my position
My EVE...
"CHAOS aka C4"
Friday, January 1, 2010
Independent Women
I love my sisters. Strong and more than able to hold their own in this cold rough world. When I think on it I can not do nothing but smile. However, it hurts me to hear my sisters that use being "Independent" out of context. You should be able to pay your own bills. You made them. You should be able to buy your own materialistic things. You wear them.
But, do to us as men being so absent in our rolls as men, when you all run into a real man not only you have a hard time recognizing him as a man, you seem to be too strong and Independent to know when to be weak. And being strong is knowing when to be weak. I (CHAOS aka C4) at times will ask an opinon on an outfit knowing what my own opinion is just to let the person that I am with at that time feel like they picked out my clothes. I will confide in the person that I am with even if I am able to deal with an issue just to give them the since of me needing them emotionally. She is my equal. All that I am and yet all that I am not. She compliments me in every way and it is my job to let her shine dispite my abilities or lack there of. I know tht I am strong but I also know that with her and only with her that I am the strongest that I can ever be. So if Iam at my strongest and I do things to let her know that she are weaker than me by contstantly bringing her down just to lift myself up. This is what the government calls being counter productive.
So now ladies, not even showing you how this missguided state of "Independence" is biblically wrong however ask and I will, we as men messed up. We force you to play the roll of a father, bread winner, preacher, mentor, counselor, doctor, back bone and I want to say we see you but have we truly failed and now you are too strong to be weak. I love the fact that you can opperate on autopilate when fake mean have failed you so often, but when the tides have turned and GOD has shift destiney your way and broght your soulmate (a real Man) your way, "CHAOS aka C4" want to know from my strong, "Independent Woman":
Are you strong enough to be weak?
- Ask him to open up a jar when you can do it yourself
- Even though you dont need it because you know you all think a like, ask his opinion so he can feel you needed his help
- Tell him thank you for loving you when you know he couldn't if he wanted to
- In a crowd of people pull him aside just to say I love you
- Hold hime tight during an emotional part of a movie like you are about to cry, when in actuallity you know that he is... about to cry
So together we cry..
"Are you strong enough to be weak?"
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